Awakening (Lazarus)
Awakening to blindness
Awakening to the stench of mildew and decay
Awakening to the hardness of the cold stone beneath my lifeless weight
Awakening to the icy chill sending shivers through every nerve in my body
Awakening…
Awakening to the voice of Jesus…
Wrists tied. Feet Bound. Face Covered.
Darkness
Only Darkness
Constricted in a cocoon of grave clothes
The dampness of the cave seeps through my linen wrappings
When was I bound, and how?
How long has my body laid rotting in darkness?
How long has my mind been lost in eternal sleep?
How long has my soul wandered in the beyond?
How long since I noticed my very breath… or since I have breathed at all?
I do not remember.
How can I know? I am dead.
or…
I was dead
Until his voice called my name…
“Come Forth”
And so I went…
I know not how I heard his voice.
I know not how I saw the soft warm reddish glow of sunlight through closed eyes beneath a linen veil.
I know not how my tied-up feet could shuffle forward.
I know not how the stone gave way, or how I became aware of the open door.
I know not how I became aware at all.
Only darkness
Only disorientation
Only stumbling toward the voice…
Toward the light
Like falling awake from a nightmare,
Like clawing my way out of the darkest pit
Up from the deepest recesses of Sheol.
Where shall I go from your Spirit, O Lord?
Even if I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
“Surely the darkness covers me, and the light about me be night,”
Even the darkness is not dark to you;
the night is bright as the day,
for darkness is as light with you. 1
Awakening…
Like taking my first breath, my first steps all over again
Like emerging not from a grave, but from a womb
Lost, afraid, alone
Until…
“Unbind him”
The eyes of perfect love pierced my soul
The breath of creation breathed new life into my body
My bonds were loosed
My hands, free
My feet, free
My eyes, free
My heart, free
Awakening
Birth and rebirth
Born and born again
Asleep, asleep no more
Bound, now free
Dead, and yet I live
Jesus calls you…
Awake
Come forth
Be unbound
You are free
What word or phrase shimmers for you or resonates in your soul?
Where do you find yourself in the story of Lazarus? (John 11:38-44)
What bindings does Jesus want to loose in your life?
What is God’s invitation for you as you follow Holy spirit beyond the grave and into this new awakened life?
1 Psalm 139:7a, 11-12.
Craig J. Sefa
Contact Craig through his website, “Echo,” at https://craigsefa.org or by email at sefacj@gmail.com.
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